PERSONAL
STARTING POINT 9
INTRODUCTION 13
“
Life changes, but everything remains the same” 13
Your “artful story” 17
Big Story and personal Story 18
The globalization movement and three Big Stories 21
The three Big Stories clash 22
Why Sensual Preciousness? 23
Re-imagining my personal Story 26
Imagining a world without war 28
I left prison with only one word, “Mother” 30
Inside Sight 31
Failed imaginations 38
The imagination of “Mother” 39
Key Points 41
PART I – BIG STORY AND PERSONAL STORY 44
OVERVIEW 44
A. YOUR BIG STORY AND YOUR PERSONAL STORY 49
Brooding emotions, icons and rituals 54
Brooding emotions 54
Secular Big Story’s ritual of registration for the Selective
Service System 55
Warrior’s Quest primal brooding emotion 56
“
Hell No! We won’t go!” icons of war resistance 58
Loss of the ritual of “marching off to war” 60
Good and bad aspects of your Big Story 61
B. HOW DO YOU HOLD THE WORLD TOGETHER? 63
Personal identity 63
Family identity 63
Social identity 65
Cultural identity 66
Spiritual identity 67
Encountering other Big Stories 69
Critical thinking 70
Brooding emotions 73
C. EVALUATING A BIG STORY AND A PERSONAL STORY 76
And so we begin 77
1. “The best of times, the worst of times” 78
Think best, feel worst 83
Monastic Years 84
Pierre Teilhard de Chardin’s vision 86
A personalizing universe 87
Every human act counts 91
Whoa! factor 92
“
What am I feeling that they are so afraid of?” 94
Violent felon, nonviolent heart 95
Nonviolent Jesus? 97
Ex-Catholic, ex-con and ex-American 99
Earthfolk’s best and worst of times 101
2. The Sunny Spot and the Shade 104
Living in the Sunny Spot 104
Living in the Shade 106
Identity groups’ Sunny Spot and Shade 110
Group brooding emotions 112
Internet’s Shade and individual powerlessness 114
Managing your brooding emotions 116
Adolf Hitler’s Sunny Spot? 122
D. HOW DO YOU FEEL THINGS ARE GOING? 125
“
Praise the Lord and pass the ammo!” 126
The Just War theory 128
Vatican Council Two and “Total War” 131
Catholic Big Story’s brooding emotions 132
Moving toward peacefulness 135
Teilhard de Chardin’s powerful influence 136
Life as a relationship 137
Teilhard’s world-wide-web of the human heart 141
War as an act of killing yourself 142
My first Earthfolk 144
Truly, how do you feel things are going? 145
Your nonverbal communication 146
Summary 148
Key Points 152
PART 2 - THREE DOMINANT BIG STORIES 157
PERSONAL STARTING POINT 157
OVERVIEW 167
A. THE RELIGIOUS BIG STORY OF THE ABRAHAMIC TRADITION 173
1. Globalization and the Biblical Big Story 173
Genesis’ shopping bag of stories 174
Genesis as source for globalization 179
Genesis as an atheistic narrative 180
“
Veiled revelation” about intimacy 181
The Abrahamic tradition 182
2. Influences on my interpretation of three dominant Big
Stories 187
Nuns with rulers, The Baltimore Catechism, and blind obedience
187
Vatican Council II’s impact on my Religious Big Story 194
Penitentiary causes re-evaluation of the three Big Stories 203
“
Hard Time” 203
“
A man buried alive.” 207
America’s penitentiary vision 209
The Garden of Eden as “Inside” 213
3. My analysis and interpretation of Biblical Genesis 217
a. Two Creation Stories 219
Many gods and male/female equality 219
The Rib and the Lone Male 220
Why is the feminine invisible? 221
Intimacy & same-sex sexuality 224
Lone Male knowing as revelation 226
Exile & The Serpent 227
Cursing childbirth and growing food 231
The Serpent: the male which speaks with the female 232
Genesis’ atheism 236
Lone Male Biblical imagining 240
b. Biblical “No sacred sexuality” 241
Family as curse 242
Exiled sexuality: homeless & rejected 243
Genesis is all about sexuality 244
Intimacy & Lone Male dominion 245
Adam’s invisible phallus 246
Serpent 248
Serpent, a god or a creature? 248
The Serpent and evil 250
Eve as goddess 251
Eve’s goddess power & Adam’s spine 254
Same-sex sacred sexuality in Genesis 257
Genesis’ emotional sequence of events 258
Day 6 reveals Genesis’ purpose 259
Penis as totem & mutual masturbation 260
c. Jesus’ homoerotic theft of the female body 264
Old Testament as part of New Testament Big Story 264
The Warrior Way as the Spiritual Path 266
Jesus as captive 268
Crucifix as icon of child abuse 269
The Family as enemy 270
Jesus becomes the female 272
d. Captive: “Do Your Own Time!” 275
Where is the goddess in Genesis? 280
4. Religious Big Story’s impact on a personal Story 286
Roman Catholic personal Story imitates its Big Story 286
My Roman Catholic personal Story 290
Summary 296
Key Points 298
B. THE SECULAR BIG STORY 305
1. Background of my Secular Big Story 308
Vatican Council II’s impact on my Secular Big Story 309
2. My analysis and interpretation of the Secular Big Story 314
a) Sacred Secularism 321
“
America” as imagination 322
King Louis XVI as Secular icon 324
Martin Luther as Secular icon 326
Three American Sacred Secular spaces 330
1) The Quaker Meeting House 330
2) The Crystal Cathedral 331
3) Washington DC's National Cathedral 332
America as a Protestant sect of Civil Religion 334
Civil Religion 335
Civil Religion’s sectarian tenets deny Biblical fundamentals
336
Sacrificial bloodshed 338
The rise of the Cleric-Citizen and divinely inspired institutions 341
Sacred Secular power of punishment 344
The Penitentiary 344
Sin and crime 354
Criminal redeemers 355
Penitentiary as Civil Religion sacrament 357
The penitentiary and intimacy 359
Inside Sight: prisons reflect the soul of America 360
Summary 368
b) Non-Sacred Secularism 370
Secularism’s roots 371
The National Secular Society’s General Principles 372
Secular Humanism 374
The Internet as Non-Sacred Secular space 375
“
Ike” as Internet icon 377
Internet roots 378
Internet history 379
Virtual Reality 381
Virtual Reality as Secular space’s Inside 383
Online identity and intimacy 384
The Internet’s Shade 387
Non-Sacred Secularism’s Annihilation of the Goddess and the
Feminine 389
Genesis as a Secular Story of atheism 394
Summary 396
3. Secular Big Story’s impact a personal Story 398
My Roman Catholic understanding of Secularism 398
Prison takes me Inside myself 399
Corporate Secularism 401
The Internet’s secular space as atheistic hope 402
“Best of times, worst of times” and Sunny Spot and the Shade
405
Summary 407
Key Points 408
C. SCIENTISM BIG STORY 413
1. Background of my Scientism Big Story 413
Vatican Council II’s impact on my Scientism Big Story 416
2. My analysis and interpretation of the Scientism Big
Story 418
Abrahamic roots 421
Scientism’s use of nonhuman models of interaction 422
Scientism’s lack of an authoritative definition 424
“Soft Sciences” and my “knowing through sensual immersion” 425
Sacred Scientism 426
The Sixth Day Sacred Scientism 428
Sixth Day Scientism Big Answers 430
Stewardship Scientism 431
Alpha and Omega 433
Noosphere and Divine Milieu 435
Warrior’s Quest 436
Stewardship Scientism’s Big Answers 436
Non-Sacred Scientism 437
Occam’s razor 439
“America” 440
Small “q” questions and no absolutes 440
Enlightened Humanism 441
Non-Sacred Scientism’s Big Answers 442
3. Scientism’s Big Story’s impact on a personal Story 444
Summary 450
Key Points 453
PART 3 – IN SEARCH OF INTIMACY 458
PERSONAL ENDING POINT 458
My brother Joseph and one mosquito 458
“
Getting back to…” what? 463
People want to Belong 464
The three Big Stories and intimacy 468
The Abrahamic labyrinth of intimacy 470
The Market as God 475
Exiles don’t belong 478
Dominion means “Might makes right.” 479
Sunny Spot and Shade are one and the same 480
What did I do that made them so afraid? 483
Primal brooding motion of post-traumatic stress 485
Summary 491
Key Points 499
Summary of Interpretations 500
APPENDIX A – BIG STORY AND PERSONAL STORY WORKSHEET 506
APPENDIX B - LINKS 510
APPENDIX C—GENESIS 1-3 520
APPENDIX D—DOCUMENTS OF VATICAN COUNCIL II, “GAUDIUM ET SPES.” 526
TABLES
Table 1 Big Story and personal Story - Definitions 25
Table 2 Big Story and personal Story - Big Questions and Answers
25
Table 3 Big Story and personal Story – Selective Service
Registration 59
Table 4 Big Story and personal Story - Summary 61
Table 5 Big Story and personal Story – American and Catholic
68
Table 6 Identities 69
Table 7 Critical Thinking and Brooding Emotion 74
Table 8 Big Story and personal Story – Author’s Early
Years 85
Table 9 Pierre Teilhard de Chardin 92
Table 10 Sunny Spot and Shade 106
Table 11 Sunny Spot and Shade – Group Identities 110
Table 12 Group Brooding Emotion 120
Table 13 Group Sunny Spot and Group Shade 122
Table 14 Big Story and range of moral issues in personal Story
143
Table 15 Religious Big Story Abrahamic Tradition & Globalization
186
Table 16 Roman Catholic Education & My Big Story 192
Table 17 Vatican Council II and My Big Story 201
Table 18 Penitentiary & My Big Story 215
Table 19 Genesis – Traditional Interpretation & My Interpretation
241
Table 20 Genesis – Traditional Interpretation & My Interpretation
#2 263
Table 21 Jesus’ Homoerotic Theft of the Female Body & My
Interpretation 274
Table 22 Prison’s Captives & My Interpretation 285
Table 23 Traditional Roman Catholic personal Story & My Roman
Catholic personal Story 292
Table 24 Roman Catholic Education & My Secular Big Story 308
Table 25 Vatican Council Two & My Secular Big Story 313
Table 26 Secular Big Story & Big Answers 320
Table 27 Sacred Secularism & Big Answers 333
Table 28 Civil Religion & Abrahamic Tradition 343
Table 29 Sacred Secular Power of Punishment & My Interpretation
366
Table 30 Non-Sacred Secularism & Internet as Secular Space
388
Table 31 Roman Catholic Education & My Scientism Big Story
414
Table 32 Vatican Council II & My Scientism Big Story 416
Table 33 Scientism Big Story & My Interpretation 442
Table 34 Scientism Big Story & Impact On My personal Story
448
Table 35 Personal Ending Point 489
Table 36 Summary of Interpretations 504
FIGURES
Figure A - Sunny Spot and Shade 107
Figure B - You are the heartbeat of life, itself 138
Figure C - Group Identities, Critical Thinking & Moral Range
in respect to issue of war 149
Figure D - Big Story Summary Chart 455
CHART
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