When you move beyond the Warrior's
Quest shadow of sexual abuse, what you discover is
that sexual coupling evokes a powerful, somewhat overwhelming
intimately erotic sense of yourself, that is, you realize intimacy within relationship.
You realize that the word “intimacy” can hardly contain
the break-down of yourself which the ecstasy of
embracing causes. Your body no longer seems
your body. And the body of your beloved no longer
seems to be his or her own. Somehow you
are together. United. One. It is a strange,
bizarre, unsettling experience where, as Beloveds, you gaze at
each other and find yourselves knocked senseless.
You have no words. You seek a new vocabulary of intimacy.
If you’ve never experienced
your body in its multi-dimensionality, when you engage in
sexual intercourse you experience a profoundly new and quite
often unnerving sense of who you are. You discover
your literal physical self, your vulnerable emotional
self, your mind-boggling, precious self.
You experience your
“self” as “we” in a breathless
and heart-pounding way.
You experience being a me/We.
It is such a boggling sense that no words
seem able to capture it. You find yourself going from baby-talk
and cooing to the creation of special nicknames (which are
totally embarrassing
if heard by others) to a tongue-tied silence. It is such a
baffling moment that only laughter and pure silliness and
surrender to the moment
allows you and your beloved to transit back to normal time.
It is at such a moment of embracing and un-embracing that
you grasp the wonder
of what Creation is … and, must you not wonder what was being
communally felt by those who wrote Genesis? Who presented
life in such a dreary, depressing way? Who, clearly, lived without
ecstasy?
When intimate, you are stunned by
a life force which seems to have—without your
conscious intention—descended upon you and embraced you.
The only way that you can express this break-through is to embrace
again and
again. To plunge into your newfound embrace
of being wildly imagined as Beloveds. Over time, through Earthfolk
practices and
rituals, you sustain this intimacy through the nurturing embrace.
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